Wednesday, October 6, 2010

You are not forgotten

In July I wrote a blog about my history and the fact that I still had both of my Great Grandmothers. It is with a heavy heart that I now write that I have lost them both. On September 22 my 99 yr old Great Grandmother Fleda Dobbs passed. As a medium, I went in to make sure that she had completed her transition and crossed to The Other Side... Thankfully, she happily went! I was full of energy and over joyed as I was picking up her feelings....
The next day, September 23 my other Great Grandmother Annie Clack passed. Unfortunately, while her passing was quick and easy, I wasn't able to see her. That sometimes happens, a soul sees the light but chooses for awhile to stay with family. And that is OK... However, that was not the case here.... In the July post I reported that Annie Clack was an ordained minister. She completely believed everything the bible told her and that did her no favors when she passed...
So I gave her a few days to contact me and when she didn't I went looking for her. I found her in the dark. She recognized me immediately and ask what I was doing there and I told her I had come to help her to Heaven.. I ask her the same question and she told me that should couldn't leave her body because she needed it for when Jesus came to get her. That is what she had always been told... To take care of her body, it is her temple and when Jesus comes back for the Rapture her body would be renewed! OMG seriously.... So I told her to come with me. She was still walking hunched over like an old lady. I told her that she was free of her body now and there was no need to move so slowly. She said, "I have moved slowly for too long to go too fast now" LOL.
I finally got her into my "elevator" to take her to the tunnel and she kept asking for her body, insisting that she would need it.... I couldn't get to the tunnel fast enough...LOL Once we got to the "top" I saw my Great Aunt Ceil and my Great Grandmother kept saying "Row, Row, Row, Row" I had no idea what she was talking about and when I ask her she only repeated, "Row". My services were no longer needed and then I felt her disconnect from my "elevator"  and went into the tunnel.
The day of my Granny Clack's funeral, Sunday Sept 26th, my Grandmother fell down a flight of stairs and was pretty badly injured... Thankfully even at 83 she didn't break anything. But she was put into ICU because her heart rate would not stabilize. So on Tuesday I went to GA to help take care of my Papa and be with Meme...They had both just lost their mothers and now Meme was in the hospital... She was doing OK but I still felt the need to be with my family... While talking to my Meme I told her about my experience with Granny Clack and Meme said, "Well she did always say she wasn't leaving until Jesus came to get her for the Rapture" I said, "Well Jesus didn't show up for the Rapture so I went and found her, but I am confused about something. Once I got her to the Light, she kept saying 'Row'. Do you know what that means?" Meme looked at me with amazement and said, "Rowe was her husbands name!" Well you could have knocked me down with a feather. I would have never in a million years known what she was talking about! As Great Grandchildren we don't always know the full names of our great grandparents... I didn't know him well so I hardly referred to him, and everyone else called him Papa Clack. But it was fabulous confirmation to what I saw, heard and felt!
I am so relieved that I could help my Granny Clack cross into the Light, but I am very upset that her beliefs almost prevented her from crossing.... Thank God we have a MEDIUM in the family!

Saturday, July 3, 2010

I was born in the backwoods of a 2-bit no where town! ~ Jackyl

This song by a 90's hairband almost sums up who I am.... Born to everyday average parents in a very very small town called Lawrenceville GA. There is not much noteworthy about this town except that it is the town where Larry Flint was shot. Right on the square in down town....My mother happened to be downtown that day. She didn't see it happen but was a bystander when they were taking him to the hospital.
Something noteworthy, but really only to my family is that my Great Grandmother Clack, born on the 4th of July 1907, has that date named for her... Not surprisingly, one of her Great-grand Sons is the Mayor of Lawrenceville and on her 100th Birthday he had the 4th of July named as "Annie Clack Day". This 4th of July she will be 103. She is in a nursing home, doesn't really know anyone and can not see or hear very well. But every time I have went to visit her, she has a HUGE smile on her face. Even though she thinks I am a nurse, LOL.
Annie Clack was a preacher with her husband. I don't have much history on her preachings or congregation. But I remember being shocked that she was an ordained minister.A real rebel of her time... A Woman and a Preacher!  Her husband was injured in a bus accident where he shattered his hips and had trouble walking. She cared for him until he died in the early 1980's. They had 6 children together. There are only 2 left, my Grandfather Glendon Clack and his sister Melba. Each of the others passed of Cancer. I believe there are something like 150 Great Grandchildren...
Glendon and Virgina Clack are my Mom's parents...They have 2 children, 4 grandchildren and 8 great grandchildren!
Virgina Clack was born in Alabama the oldest of 6 children. Her mother turned 98 this year. She still lives in Alabama with her youngest daughter, who is younger than my mother... My Grandmother once told me some of her history and this is what I remember. Her parents separated when she was about 5 and got back together when she was 8. They lived with my Grandmother's Grandmother until her parents got back together. They were poor farmers. My grandmother recalls that if they wanted soap, they had to make it the old fashioned way. Her father died in a car accident when my mother was around 11 in the 1960's. When I was around 5 I ask my Great Grandmother why she was not married and vividly I remember her answer. "I was married once and didn't like it much, I am a woman that learns from her mistakes!" At 5 I was surprised, at 37, not so much... LOL
My Dad is Thomas McCart. His parents were Lawson and Gertrude McCart... again poor farmers from Georgia. They had 3 children, my Dad being the youngest. They saved their money and purchased land.... I live in the 100 acre woods and just like Pooh, it was magical! They have both since passed and the 100 acre woods sold... There is now a freeway running through the yard... and pink houses dotting the landscape...(sorry, just couldn't resist) I hear John Cougar Mellencamp every time I go past there!
When I was growing up, there were only 2 lane roads in Lawrenceville. I still remember when they build Hwy 316 that connected Lawrenceville to Interstate 85 in Duluth. My Dad loaded us in the car and we took the 8 mile ride to where they were building Gwinnett Place Mall... Big fun back then! The fun ended when most of the roads went under construction and there was a huge influx of people... In the 1990's Lawrenceville was the fastest growing city in the US. Now, most of the roads are 4 lane.
And I have moved to a small town in North Carolina. The town my children live in is much like the town that I grew up in.
My family made me who I am today..This is my history, where I came from.... All of these people shaped me, guided me, hurt me and loved me. I am thankful that I still have most of my relatives and I marvel that at 37 I can say that I have 2 living Great Grandmother's...

So Happy 4th of July or in my case.... HAPPY ANNIE CLACK DAY!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Protecting our Children

From What you may ask.... A LOT that can not be seen with our physical eyes! By now most of you have heard about Indigo, Crystal and Rainbow children.... The is a wealth of information on the internet so I will not repeat it here. My goal is to help psychically protect these precious beings of pure light! We protect the homes they sleep in, protect them from the weather, protect their bodies with good food but forget about their Aura's! Most people pay little attention to their aura.... When ask to describe an aura I usually tell people that our Spirit is so large that our physical body can not hold it all and our aura is the "spill over".
I have at least 1 phone call per week from a parent telling me that their child is having nightmares or that has sensory overload when in public. Most recently with older children I am hearing of relentless bullying of these "connected" children! It outrages me! As a mother of an Indigo and a Crystal child, and being an Indigo myself, my job is to protect...I am a Spirit Warrior and Mama bear comes out, but there is little that I can do since the schools have to be so PC and very little contact is made with the parent of the Bully child! The following information will help you protect your babies from what you can not see...

Grounding.... Very different from taking away TV..LOL

I can not stress this enough! It is a very simple process that needs to be done everyday. These children seem to "float" above us with their head in the clouds all the time... They are wide open for new experiences at all times... But they live on earth and have a very important job to do. Their mission is Love and understanding; to help us remember the Spirit in us all! Left to their own devises their feet would never touch ground. So to connect them back to the earth plane they need to get their bare feet in the dirt. Even if you take them on a walk around the yard showing them the different flowers that are planted or better yet, plant a garden with them!! I visualize with my children... Children love to pretend so we pretend that we are trees!! We feel our feet growing deep into the earth, arms stretched out, swaying back and forth with the wind. Releasing anything negative into the earth and sucking in the Bright Light of God's Love! Filling us with the Love we need to help others. Where there is Light, darkness (negativity) can not live.
Because of my work as a Psychic Medium, I regularly meditate and release not only my "stuff" but other people's stuff too! I have a meditation tree and have taught my children how to use it... We sit under it on the hammock and discuss any issue they may have, I mentally wrap the issues into a ball and give it to the tree! The smallest connection with the earth will help them come back down..

Aura Protection...

My children and I call this "Our Invisible Force Field". Every day before we go out we put this on.... No matter what! Just like any fabulous Super Hero... After all, they would not be called Super if they did not have special protection abilities. Kids have seen enough TV to fully understand this concept so it seems the easiest to use. Before we go to sleep, we put our Force Field over ourselves and extend it around our other family members and then our home... You can even extend it to extended family or friends that do not live with you.
Wrap your babies in a protective Bubble of Love! I tell my babies that my love wraps all the way around them! When we 1st started this exercise I would take bubbles and blow them around them and then ask them to imagine what it would be like if they were a bubble floating around.. Then I would ask them to see that bubble wrapping around them and not popping. Once the bubble is on, it only needs to be reinforced daily.
Now that my babies are older and they have a good understanding of their aura, I tell them to zip it up like a sleeping bag. Seeing themselves tucked down deep so the zipper closes around their head.
Any of these protections will work and you can even make up your own... For example I have a friend with a 2 yr old. He loves Thomas the Train so every night she tells him to go into the tunnel and close it up. The point is, to put some kind of protective barrier around your child's Aura.


How is it that Bullies always know what button to push for each child? It amazes me that their parents are oblivious! But most people have shut down their Spiritual side and have trouble recognizing negative traits in their children.. They strive to be perfect and project that image onto their children, refusing to see how easily children will be influenced by other children. We have become a society living in denial! And our children are a direct reflection of us; if our children are not well behaved, it means we are bad. This is not true! Your children are their own people with their own Spiritual paths to follow! Our job is to help them walk it, not deny their Spiritual needs. It seems to me that most parents are out of touch with their own Spirituality that there is no way they can help their kids. And lets not mistake Spirituality with Religion... just because you go to church does not mean you are in touch with your true Spirit!
While there is not much you can do about the other child, there is A LOT you can do to protect your child. The following techniques are some that I have used with my children and with negative people in my life.
The first thing I tell my child is to ground and protect. Once that is done we focus on bringing God's Love and Light into our body, knowing that we amazing Beings of Love; Free to create our own reality! Visualize the negative person on the outside of our aura. Put mirrors around your aura with the intent that the bully see how their behavior is having a negative effect. Then see yourself moving far away from the bully. I have seen them on a boat, on top of a mountain, in another country. Again, this is a personal preference visualization so use what works best for you or your child. The goal is to get the bully's energy out of your energy. While you can visualize this FOR your child, your child also has to be able to do it for themselves. Knowledge is the key!

If you think that your child is an Indigo, Crystal or a Rainbow child, please research what this means. I hope that this has offered some comfort and insight.

Peace and Happiness!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

I have a Dream!

Yes I do. I have a Dream! You see, I was born on MLK's birthday in 1973. This is really not significant as many people are born every day. However, there is a significance to me, that I have only recently accepted. I am a white woman that grew up in the south. I went to a mostly white school and most of my friends were white. It was not that I was racist, I just didn't have exposure to many Black people. It was never a conversation in my home that I should not play with people of another color and with the innocence of a child, I accepted my world as right.
Last week my beautiful talented daughter preformed in a play about Martin Luther King and the struggles of African American people. As an adult I had learned about this in school and formed my own opinions based on my experiences. As a psychic medium, sometimes what we think is true, Spirit tells us is not. So sitting at this play I feel spirit moving next to me. And the next thing I know, I hear in my ear, "I wish they would recite the whole speech. They have lost the true meaning, they have perverted my intent!" Shaking my head, tears falling from my eyes, I realized that I had never heard or read the entire speech. So thanks to the Internet, I pulled up the speech and read it along with an audio version that I found. Again I find myself sitting here with tears in my eyes and an ache in my heart. Knowing that Martin Luther King was at that play prompting me, asking me if I had the courage to stand up and say, "I WILL WALK"
After reading the speech, and opening my heart, I know that MLK was NOT only speaking to African Americans, he was speaking to white people too, asking them to let go of their hatred and bigotry. His dream was that white people and black people would open their hearts to see the other as a beautiful soul and walk side by side helping one another. He was not saying to the AA that you have been wronged against so behave any way you choose. He ask the white people to judge AA on the CONTENT OF THEIR CHARACTER. What a profound statement... JUDGE ME ON MY CHARACTER, NOT THE COLOR OF MY SKIN. And what has become of that statement, largely because we have not read the entire speech is I will behave anyway I choose because of all that I have suffered. This statement is also sent to white people.
Affirmative Action even had a pure intent, that has now been pervert beyond anything conceivable. Legally, if a white person is more qualified, he may not get the job, so he is now being judged by his skin color and not the CONTENT OF HIS QUALIFICATIONS.

Here is part of the speech that I found especially profound:

But there is something that I must say to my people, who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice: In the process of gaining our rightful place, we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred. We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again, we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.
The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. And they have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom.

MLK asks us to accept accountability for our actions. He ask that ALL people stop the hate and bitterness, he ask us to be accountable for our actions and against all physical forces, love with all of your heart!

Love, that is what what MLK taught. He knew that we are all connect to each other, that we are all supposed to love each other, not based on the color of our skin, but based on the CONTENT OF OUR CHARACTER.

So yes, I HAVE A DREAM. That we as beautiful soul beings will start behaving in a helpful, loving way, no matter what color someones skin is, and help human kind live in their glory. That the AA community will embrace what was taught in its entirety and not a select few lines. MLK taught of lifting up our brothers and sister, not turning part of his speech and principles into unspoken rights or permissions for the AA community to live in a world of entitlement for what they have not earned. If you want to be judged on the content of your character, you must first behave in a way that MLK will be proud of.

Here is a link to the speech, please take a few minutes to open your heart and read the entire message!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Spritiual Cord Cutting Updated at the bottom

Unless you are not human, you have invisible cords connected to your aura and/or physical body. People have different names for the cords and use terms such as, attachments or bonds. Whatever you call them they are there. People who have experienced out of body mediation's or near death experiences have reported seeing a silver cord connecting their spirit to their physical body. When a baby is born, it is connected to its mother by a cord.
The cords I am speaking about are the cords that keep us connected to an experience, event or people. They are invisible but there none the less. Even when we break from the physical person or event, sometimes we still hold on to the cord. Feeling that if we cut it, we loose the attachment or memory. While there are some cords that we want to keep, there are others that continue to cause us pain; physical and emotional. These are the ones that need to be let go of. While it would seem easy, sometimes it is not.
Recently, I have been feeling the need to let go of past issues. There was one event in my life that I knew still caused me tremendous pain and my guides told me that now was the time to let it go. While doing some spiritual work with a dear friend of mine I ask for her assistance with this. Not really understanding why only knowing that I should.
We went into meditation and she channeled the most helpful and powerful cord cutting I have ever experience. The results have been both physical and emotional. She has also been guided to channel healing Energetic Portals and I have included the link at the bottom of this message. If you do this meditation, please visit the Fire Portal for assistance and if you keep reading, you will understand why. Below is the mediation as I remember it:

We begin by calling in our guides, Arch Angels, Jesus, Mary and the Ascended Masters asking them for support and guidance. See yourself inside a circle of golden, purple fire. Open all of your Chakras and feel the healing light radiate throughout your entire being. Feeling the love and support from the other side and seeing yourself as a light being. Bring in the person or event that you need to separate from. Honestly tell them how you feel, release all attachment and forgive yourself and the event or person. Send the person or event love and ask that the fire burn away what no longer serves your higher self. Sending this healing back into past lives if you need to, sending it across time and space. When you feel you are finished, release the person from the circle. See yourself standing alone there, feeling the healing warmth of the fire and allowing the cord to that event or person to be burned. When you are ready, see the flames lowering knowing that you are safe and supported.

This can be a very short meditation or it can be as long as you need it. You can even do multiple events!

After doing this meditation I have had various physical and emotional symptoms. My spirit feels very light and free but my body physically hurts where the cords were burned away. I am having hot and cold spells although my temperature has remained normal. I am extremely thirsty and feel no desire to eat. My lungs feel clear, yet I have a mild cough. My nose is running but my sinuses feel clear and I have a mild headache, much like the common cold, but at the same time I don't feel sick. I have a burning down my esophagus like I could vomit but my body does not have to. While I am having physical symptoms, at the same time, I am not. I understand that this does not make a lot of sense, however, this is how I am feeling and I know it is because of all of the events and people that I have been releasing! It feels wonderful and crappy at the same time!!!!

I hope that you use this meditation and that it helps you as much as it has me!! Enjoy!

Please take a moment to visit the website of Linda Backes for the Fire Portal:


I wanted to update everyone on the past week since I have done this cord cutting... After speaking with Linda and describing my ongoing symptoms she thought to herself that this could not be right for them to last so long... After her meditation she called and told me that I was not finished but that she was not to help as this was a lesson for me to figure out... **big sigh** Thanks Spirit... so off I went into meditation... only to discover that while I had cut the cord to this event, someone was still connected to it... This was a 3 way cord from the event to me to this other person back to the event. Because I was still connected to the person, the cord was not completely severed. So I contacted the person and ask if they were willing to "Go There" with me... Thankfully They were agreeable....
After a long conversation filling in the blanks of things that I didn't know, we went into meditation and severed their cord to the event! HHUUUUUHHHHH sweet relief! It was severed and healing balm was placed on both of our connect points. We reinforced our connection and the results have been miraculous!

Thank you Linda for helping me figure this out.

Saturday, February 13, 2010


I am always amazed when I hear Spiritual people trying to mask their true emotions or pretend that they have no emotions at all. Or worse yet deny any negative emotion! They show happiness all the time on the outside but you never really know how they feel on the inside.... How is it that you get to that point? No emotions, no attachments, no anger, no "negative" emotion at all??? REALLY???? How??? And the bigger question is WHY? Why would you deny how you truly feel? If someone says something that hurts your feelings, you are entitled to feel any way that you do... We are after all humans. We made a choice to come here! And in coming here, we also made a choice to have emotions. Negative emotions have their place just as positive emotions. As a matter of fact, I feel like we learn more valuable lessons from the negative emotions.

Before we come here we know what lessons we need to learn.

I have even hear people say "Stop spinning the story" What they are really saying is, "Your story is not important. I can't deal with your negative emotions" Your negative emotions remind them that they are trying to cover up their own! The story is important, especially if it is your story! There is healing in the story, so don't place judgment on the story, focus on how you can help heal the story! The lesson is IN THE STORY!

As Spiritual people, how can we help anyone else if we hide our emotions behind happiness? Our own "misery" helps others deal with their story.

Masking your emotions is hiding! When you forget how important "negative" emotions are then you have stopped growing and learning.. Why are you still on the earth plane if you don't want to grow anymore?

It is only when those negative emotions over run your life and you close yourself off to others and to love that you know you have disconnected from Source. Shutting down causes separation, anger, depression and even hatred. At this point, nothing will make you happy so spinning a story is all you have left! But even then, once you have heard the story and have a better understanding of where the pain is coming from, hopefully you will be able to help guide them back to God Light! And that's what its all about... People will relate to you when you are on their level... Masking your emotions can place you in a position of ego. When your portray yourself as completely enlightened you are placing yourself above the common people. And at that point, you have lost touch with your human side.

Love and happiness are wonderful feelings but they are not the only feelings. Everything has balance, even our emotions... For every feeling of happiness, there is sadness. If you have never had extreme sadness, you can not experience complete happiness.
Get back into the classroom called earth and experience LIFE with all its emotions!


I woke from a dream last night. I first met a man who was trying to get a boat into the water. The whole thing played out like a movie. At first I didn’t like the man. And he really bumbled getting the boat into the water. As the “movie” played out there was one scene where I wanted to drive his very large 4 wheel drive truck and I couldn’t get it out of the woods. I went forward and almost went down a very rocky slope, huge boulders everywhere. When I thought all was lost, in jumps the hero and stops the truck! The entire dream had a theme of fun and excitement, really living life! Swimming, playing, laughing and adventure!

As I sit here thinking of this scene, it takes me back to my childhood… Oh the days of 4 wheeling, motorcycle riding, tractor pulls, biker parties, Daytona Bike Week and mud bogging!! If you don’t understand “redneck-eze” I will explain: Mud bogging is when you take your 4 wheel drive, rail dune buggy or anything else you can get through and drive it full speed through a huge mud bog… You compete against someone else and whoever makes it out 1st wins! After the “races” are over, you are free to join into the Mud Wrestling!! (As I write this I fully understand how redneck this all is! Perfect cause I am from a little redneck town in Georgia!) Tractor pulls are in this same vein. You get a tractor and load it with weights that gradually move up the back of a trailer and see how far you can pull it. Afterwards, the monster trucks would smash cars… Now all of this was before monster trucks became so commercial! Back then it was raw fun!

Even thinking about these events gets my blood racing! The excitement and the fun! And no event was complete until someone poured beer on you! We usually got home when the sun was coming up! Those were the days!

My Dad is a Biker, through and through, and when I was small I wanted to be just like him! Everything he did was exciting, target shooting, hunting, working on trucks. We always had 4 wheel drive trucks, motorcycles, dirt bikes and of course guns and at one point we even had a purple dune buggy and a rail buggy! From a young age I could use all of the above. He got me my 1st BB gun when I was 5, my 1st dirt bike when I was 9 and when I was 12 he told me that if I could figure out how to drive the dune buggy (a stick shift) I could have it… Of course he didn’t count on me figuring it out and it was never mine. A few years ago, fondly remembering those days, I bought myself a dune buggy and my children get a little taste of how I grew up!

Those days offer an honesty that is rare these days.

Which brings me to the point of this writing, balance. Yes you can fully enjoy living in the moment and be who you are, NO MATTER WHO THAT IS and still be of service! The days of wild parties are long gone, replaces with the calm and serenity of servitude. All that I do is in service to God, spreading the word that God lives in us and is not a separate entity. I teach this to my children hoping that they will shine so brightly that people will accept them even in the heart of the “Bible Belt”. We balance our spiritual lives with the fun and excitement of good ole fashion motorcycle riding and dune buggy racing…. Just being kids, knowing that one day, they will look at their mother knowing that she was able to balance a spiritual side with a reckless, wild abandon that will indeed on day set us free!